That awkward moment when you log into the wrong blog and almost post a bunch of messed up shit…
Me before I eat: Should I eat? I should. It's okay, it's just an apple. I need to eat. I'm so hungry. I'm going to eat fuck this.
Me after I eat: Why did I eat. Fuck I'm so fat and stupid and weak. I should purge. Why did I eat. I'm so stupid. God why the fuck did I do that.
the moment you see a blade and your first thought is cut. the moment you see a flame and your first thought is burn. the moment you’re up high and your first thought is jump. the moment you look at medicine and your first thought is how many it would take to overdose. the moment you are in a crowded room and your first thought is I’m all alone. the moment you wake up and your first thought is I can’t take this anymore.
This is my youngest daughter, Ava. I felt that I needed to share the conversation she and I had after a school field trip today.
Ava: Mommy, we saw Princesses skating on the ice!!
Me: Wow!! Did you have fun?
Ava: Yeah, but there is a best part!!
Me: What was it?
Ava: We got to meet the Princesses and I asked Snow White if she had a boyfriend.
Me: (Laughing) Did you? What did she say?
Ava: She said she did and then she asked me if I had one!! And I said I had one, but I didn’t like him any more.
Me: Oh. Well, how come you don’t like him anymore?
Ava: Because I like my other friend now and then I got scared and asked her if I could still be a princess and she asked why so I told her that my friend I like is a girl and I want to have a girlfriend.
Me: (a bit surprised) Oh. Ok, well what did she tell you?
Ava: That’s the best part! She said that as long as I have love I already AM a Princess!!
